Week 4

Week 4:
Weight Change: -3.4
Total Weight Change: -6.8

Well this week was a success! I struggled with my food, and ate 2 of fairly high point meals, on on Sat night and one on Tues night, however I stuck to my PA and ate well the rest of the week. I especially made a point to have several very low point dinner to counter my high point dinners. I do think that some of this weight loss may also actually reflect weight that I lost last week, but because of where I was in my cycle, could not tell last week.

Some food that helped me this week:
berries! cherries, blueberries and raspberries
salads
dungoness crab
hunter chicken (weight watchers recipe)
weight watchers ice cream bar

PA this week:
Sa: 1 hr cardio hip hop
Su: 1 hr weight training w/ Alyssa
M: nothing
T: 30 minutes run/walk
W: 1 hr weight training w/ Alyssa
Th: nothing
F: 30 minutes run/walk and 45 minutes weight training

Counseling Corner:
Keep my eye on the long term goal, don't stress so much about each week but remember that there will always be ups and downs.

Yeah! My short term goal was to lose 10 lbs by Sarah's wedding. The wedding is in a month, and I only have 3.5 pounds to go, so it should be an attainable goal.

Week 3

Week 3:

Weight Change: +.8 lbs

Wow, I gained this week. I'm pretty pissed. I worked out even harder than last week, and did very well on keeping tract of all my food. I have talked to a couple of people about this and there are a few ideas:

1. I'm just starting my period

2. I've been a little swollen w/ the extra working out

3. I was a little constipated

4. I didn't work out on Friday night (this is my idea, no one else thought this was the problem)

5. I didn't keep track properly and I really should have gained the weight

6. muscle

So, after a small inital meltdown (yes, sobbing in the car), and a minor food binge on Sat night, I am still on track. Even with the extra food on Sat, I have been doing well and working out and keeping track of all my food. I am definitely nervous now for my next weigh in, which is unfortunate since last week I was practically looking forward to getting on the scale. My counselor reminded me that this is a long term committment, and there will be weeks that I don't lose and I have to be able to move past them and not dwell or "fall off the wagon". So, I'm trying hard not to freak out.

This is a short post, but I didn't have a chance to write earlier, and it wasn't a great week, so I'm not feeling too motivated to write.

Wish me luck next week.

Week 2

Week 2:

Weight Change: -4.2 lbs

This has been a good week! A great way to start WW off with a bang. BF joined this week, so that will be good, I think. I'm not too sure actually. Yesterday he bought a bunch of churros (yes, those deep fried peices of dough coated in cinnamon and sugar) and a big cookie. Of course he can still be on WW and eat those, but it's not neccesarily the best way to start, and it's one thing to buy ONE churro, but a whole bag?! Anyway, the whole thing made me a little nervous. He wants to lose 10-20 pounds, while I need to lose about 100 lbs so I'm starting to feel a little stressed out about what his committment will be. It would be very upsetting to have joined WW w/ him, only be have him be an enabler later on when I will need someone to tell me to drop that bag of cheetos! OK, this is not a very happy post, even though this has been a great week, so I'll move on.

My trainer was out of town this week, so I was not able to see her 2x as I normally do. However, that didn't seem to be a problem! My exercise this week:

Sat: nada

Sun: 1 hr weight training w/ trainer (13 pts)

Mon: 30 minute run/walk interval, plus 30 minute walk (10 pts)

Tue: 1 hr walk on the sand (4 pts)

Wed: 1 hr weight training (13 pts)

Thu: nada

Fri: 1 hr weight trainging (13 points)

Sat: 1 hr cardio hip hop class (13 pts)

Awesome! A typical PA week for me is 2-3x weights 1-2x cardio, so this was a step up from normal! Of course, now that I am out of school, I have more time, so that has helped. And, as you can tell from this blog, I am so TIRED of feeling bad about my self, so I am really trying to turn this around.

My food this week was also good. I did not go over my points and wrote down literally everything. The day I started (last Sat) I went out to mexican w/ my friend. Not the best way to start, and I got full off chips and salsa before the food even came. I went and had Mexican last nigh w/ BF and we shared a plate of fajitas (no tortillas for me) and I ate 12 chips (3 pts) then pushed the basket to the other side of the table. I definitely do not have the self control to have the chips in front of me and not eat them, but I do have the self control to move them out of my reach. I ate a lot of salads this week, but they were good salads. I have never been very good about making good salads, but that may have changed. The salads I have been making had either chicken, baked tofu, or crab in them, with an herb salad mix, baby carrots, garbonzo beans, olives, tomatos, avocado and this honey mustard dressing made from yogurt, so it is only 45 calories but has 100% of the thickness and flavor!

Food Highlights (food that made my life easier last week):

• salads
• skinny cow ice cream bars
• cherries

Counseling Corner

Jacki and I met on Monday. One of her suggestions to me was to stop talking and thinking so much about how to change my weight. Instead she wants me to focus on my eating behavior and my activity behavior. These things, when I think about them, and talk about them, are not so closely linked to my 'self' but are behaviors, than can be changed. I liked this idea. Because I have been overweight for so long, and it has become something that defines me (in my own head), to change my weight is scary, it means i have to change myself. But, to change my eating behavior, well, that seems much less scary.

Yeah for a great first week!